Before I became a mother, I was nice. I was friendly and giving and kind. I wasn’t selfish or mean. I hardly ever got angry. I’d go out of my way to help my friends. They trusted me. They thought I was a good person. I was well-liked and reliable. I wasn’t a bitch.
Motherhood has changed me.
Parenthood is the hardest thing I have ever done. It brings me so much joy and laughter, but with it so much utter insecurity and frustration. I’m snuggling and giggling with my daughter one minute, and negotiating a new bedtime story contract via an arbitrator the next. As if dealing with estrogen wasn’t already a pain in the ass, now I get to ride the ups and downs of child-rearing too.
And while all this is true for most parents, there are things in our lives that actually make the business of parenthood a lot easier. We Canadian parents in particular have it a lot better than we might realize on a day-to-day basis. We take these things for granted, while we’re trying to ignore the judgemental stares of the general public as our toddler throws an earth-shattering tantrum in the cereal isle.
One of the things that plagues me as a parent is the idea that I’m not doing enough for my kids. Even more, that I am not enough for them. It can really screw with your head if you let it, as I learned over the past few weeks with Baby G.
The time has finally come. Your child is gearing up for the first day of school and just like them, you have no idea what to expect. What if they don’t eat their lunch? What if they have an accident? What if they freak out? What if they just need you?
I know exactly how you feel.
My daughter’s junior kindergarten report card was amazing. Her teachers outlined every area of learning they’d covered, citing specific activities and how my daughter had performed, engaged and internalized each of them. At the end, it said that when she went back to school after summer vacation, she would be in senior kindergarten.
I couldn’t have been prouder.
Now that she’s going back, I feel a need to confess to my back to school short-comings. I have to admit, I didn’t do much to keep up with her progress over summer vacation. In fact, when my daughter does go back to school, she’ll only be a teeny-tiny bit further along then when she left. So, in the interest of being an honest mom to myself and to you, here are a few areas where I totally slacked off on my daughter’s learning.